transformation

The Path to Personal Freedom

So, I wasn't always this free...

I used to be trapped in a mental prison of self-judgement, criticism, doubt and perfectionism.  I would put ridiculous amounts of pressure on myself to be strong and perform.  I was afraid of confrontation.  I couldn't stand anyone being "mad" at me.   I was constantly in my head and adjusting my behavior to fit in and be liked.  In fact, I was so good at fitting in, I prided myself at being a chameleon - being who I needed to be... or who I thought I needed to be.  

It got me a "good" job and lots of acquaintances, but I was missing a sense of purpose or a community who really knew me.  (Besides, if they really knew me they wouldn't actually like me.  They would find out I was a fraud!)  

I felt chained to a corporate credit card, the idea of "security" and an image of having it all together.  

What I lacked was FREEDOM - in my mind and body, to own my time, to pursue my interests, to relax, to say what I really thought, to be honest and vulnerable, to move how I wanted to move, to be myself

As I write this, I feel completely liberated, unafraid to share my story, knowing what I stand for and following my passion and purpose.  I feel free from the expectations of what I should do or who I should be.  I feel free to challenge the status quo.  

I feel free to be imperfect.  I feel free to take action despite not knowing it all or without having it all figured out.  

Now, there is something much deeper informing and guiding me that is not dependent on things outside myself. 

But let's be real.  Getting here has not been easy.  

It's been messy, with ups and downs, deaths and rebirths.  But because of doing these 4 things, every time I stumble or feel lost, I end up closer to who I am and what I'm really here to do.  I become stronger, more clear and more free.  In the end, it's about the journey, not the destination. 

wild, crazy, messy, liberated love, 

Kiki 

 

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"7 Sacred Rituals to Find Balance & Ignite Your Passion"

 

The time has come for women to accept their spiritual responsibility for the planet.

“You will be teachers for each other. You will come together in circles and speak your truth to each other. The time has come for women to accept their spiritual responsibility for the planet.”
— Sherry Anderson recounting her dream in "The Feminine Face of God: The Unfolding of the Sacred in Women"

 

As soon as I read these words, it hit me.  

I am not alone.  

I am exactly where I need to be, doing exactly what I need to be doing. 

For years, women have been dreaming of what my sisters and I know and can feel is happening.  

WE are not alone. 

The revolution is underway. 

This is cause for a celebration!

“What we need are stories from spiritually mature women in our time and culture who are demonstrating the sacred in today’s world. We need to hear from women we can relate to...We need to hear directly from these women about the unfolding of the sacred in their own lives in their own words, and in the language of their own hearts.”
— -
With a resonant "YES" I humbly accept. 

With a resonant "YES" I humbly accept. 

I am here to tell my story.

The truth is that I did not plan on becoming a voice for the feminine spiritual revolution.  In fact, I thought for sure there is something else I am here to do, something more marketable that fits neatly into a business plan, like weight-loss.  

The harder I fought to "find" my perfect business proposition, my target market, the more resistance I felt.  I was in my head and something was missing, nagging at me.

"There is something bigger."

"Get to the core of what women and the world truly need."

 "Don't be scared.  It's time. Women are ready for this."

There is no cookie-cutter business model to follow.  There is no "for sure."  But this is a risk worth taking because I believe in it more deeply than anything.  This is what motivates and excites me, makes my heart beat faster and sends chills in waves through my body.  It is time to stop "trying" and start "being."  This is what I and we have been waiting for.  

This is what wants to flow through me.  

 

“If women are to pioneer a new way of embodying spirit in the world today, one thing seems certain: we must listen to the deep source of wisdom within ourselves and tell the truth about what we are learning.”
— -

Well shit.  That means getting really fucking honest, real, vulnerable about what is happening for me and the women I call sisters.  That also means seriously trusting in myself and my abilities to make a greater vision for life on this planet a bonafide reality. 

The parts of me that were self-conscious or worried about being judged have dissipated into fully accepting my responsibility. 

I recently found myself on a rooftop here in Playa del Carmen, Mexico, alone, under the stars, peering out over the jungle with the orchestra of the waves, speaking out loud, witnessed only by earth and sky, saying,

"YES. I accept. I accept the challenge."

It is up to me to listen to my own inner wisdom and speak my truth in service to other women and the world.   It is up to me to get out of my own way. 

 

It is time for women to return to ourselves, our natural rhythms and each other, remember how we used to be revered, and reclaim our femininity and the value of our gifts.

The knowledge we are reviving is not the type taught in schools, churches or company retreats.  This is not a thing of the ego or the intellect.  In fact, it is quite the opposite.  

 

The wisdom and power that lies waiting for women is visceral

vis·cer·al    /vis(ə)rəl/  adjective:  relating to deep inward feelings rather than to the intellect;  synonyms: instinctive, instinctual, gut, deep-down, deep-seated, deep-rooted, inward

 

We are here to reclaim what is ours to know, love, trust and express...

Our femininity.

Our bodies.

Our energy.

Our rhythm.

Our traditions.

Our sisterhood.

Our beauty.

Our power. 

Our spirits.

 

And so it is. 

 

Thank you for joining me on this adventure.

 

Stay tuned to kikifed.com as more musings, events and offerings emerge!

Email me at kikifederico@gmail.com if you desire to co-create an experience for awakening women. 


Sherry Anderson & Patricia Hopkins quoted throughout from "The Feminine Face of God: The Unfolding of the Sacred in Women"

Emptiness that Awakens Part IV: Keep it simple. Just Be.

Still not sure? 

 

I know the idea of “awakening” can sound daunting, difficult or serious (or perhaps too heady for some of you), but it doesn’t have to be!  (And really, we know life itself throws that all in for us.)  

When you are true to yourself, your transform the world around you through your presence. 

When you are true to yourself, your transform the world around you through your presence. 


Keep it simple.

Awakening is a process that starts with simple awareness, self-observation, of your circumstances, relationships, actions, words, thoughts, beliefs.  Ok, and that requires a willingness to adopt some real look-in-the-fucking-mirror personal responsibility.


And then, rather than just going through the motions, pause.  Ask yourself, "what or how would I like to be experiencing life instead?”  Where are you unsatisfied, stressed out or suffering?  What do you love and love to do?  What is really important to you?  What makes you feel at ease and alive?  


You can think of it as self-correcting (if awakening isn’t your jam at this point). 


Awakening opens you up to a life of curiosity, possibility, personal power, creativity, passion, beauty and, best of all, love.  Every step of the way opens you up to more and more freedom

And the exciting thing is that this is happening all over the world amongst a broad spectrum of people from all walks of life. 

With the vast resources and information that we have access to, we simply owe it to ourselves and future generations to wake up


Just be.

One of the biggest challenges that comes along with this path is that not everyone is on it.  The reality is that it’s just not that time in human history yet.  

This is an extremely personal journey, and everyone is in a different place in their evolution. 

In the process of awakening, we sometimes fight the need to tell everyone about it, how amazing it is, how good we feel, how much we are remembering about the truth of who we are and how desperately the planet needs us all to change... Truth is this can get exhausting and make you question yourself. 


And so my invitation is two-fold: 

1. Expand your community of friends. Actively find your people.

I realize that you may be changing faster than the people around you, even the ones you love.  Have compassion for them.  Watch your need to explain every detail of your transformation to others with the goal that they will “get you.”  The truth is, they may never get you.  And, it’s not their job to get you or to change themselves.  It’s your job to accept them for who they are, releasing any expectation around how they should be or think. 

Can you exist in your newfound truth and freedom and still hold them in a loving place?  Can you see and cherish the beauty of who they are, exactly as they are?  Can you just be and find your center and pleasure in the moment? 

The truth is that you do need to find people you can relate to on this journey.  

You need to surround yourself with a community of men or women who are at the next level. 

Those people will be extremely important to you feeling connected and understood.  They will play an vital role in helping you expand your ability to feel good and succeed in living your purpose.  Those friends and mentors are essential and deeply meaningful.  So do what you need to “fill your cup” with friends who want to talk about life, spirituality, awakening.  Just don’t forget to be present with and accepting of those who are not. 


2. Hold a part of your transformation sacred

Sacredness implies high value, reverence and respect.  In this way, you can feel that a part of your awakening is special, special enough not to want to cheapen it by broadcasting it where it’s not going to be valued or understood.  Many of us do feel it is our duty to spread this message and play our part in shifting the consciousness of the planet.  However, there is something beautiful in reserving a part of your practice, a ritual perhaps, that is just for you and spirit.  Be aware of the ego's need for validation.  Be aware of the ego's need to assign meaning or an immediate intellectual interpretation to a feeling, synchronicity or other experiences.  By holding your evolution as sacred, you give it space, you don't ignore nor do you smother it.  You begin to feel a quiet sense of being in awe of yourself as a part of the greater forces at work. 


And so to close, I bow to you, in all your infinite potential, in honor of the spark of life that rests within you.  Keep up the good work.  The world needs you to believe in you. 


With wild love,

Kiki Federico 


Inspired by Marianne Williamson’s Enchanted Love Workshop.